2837/Sinon Lives a Hard Life

Sinon Lives a Hard Life
Date of Scene:	18 August 2015
Location:	Alfheim Online <ALO>
Synopsis:	Betty and Veronica talk about that elephant over there in the corner of the room. You know the one. The one who dresses in black because he thinks it makes him look so cool.
Cast of Characters:	9, 649

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Sinon (649) has posed:
    We needed to talk.... clearly four of the most terrifying words in the english language.

    Although possibly not? Considering this is Asuna and Sinon? Although then again considering a few things, uh, possibly yes.

    Well, considering what happened the last time they met, or rather what was talked about at the same time as the last time they met, possibly definitely yes...

    In any case, here we are at Forest House K4, AKA the Log House, AKA the honeymoon suite, AKA the love shack, AKA (insert some other nonspecific but very private location somewhere in Alfheim if the vaugeries of time and rp mean that this place hasn't actually been reclaimed yet).

    ...in any case.

    Sinon has tried to wring her tail in the same way someone would wring a piece of fabric in worry exactly once and she's never doing that again as long as she possibly lives. Instead, she is slowly shuffling towards The House, slowly, slowly, gosh darnit Asada you thought you were over acting like this.

    Aaaand... she's... at the front door!

    *children cheering sedately*

Asuna (9) has posed:
The drapes are almost always opened in the house - it's a beautiful world, and Asuna appreciates it. As such, Sinon's approach to the house does not go unnoticed, and Asuna answers the door - or, well, beats Sinon to knocking on it - by throwing it open when she's reached the porch.

"... Sinon."

Asuna stops herself from giving the other girl a giant hug, stepping back and gesturing her in the door, a bit anxiously.

Sinon (649) has posed:
    "...Asuna."

    Now, as you may remember, Sinon has really been rather... up-and-down, emotionally, since you first met her, for obvious reasons. Now, this is actually something that has been getting better recently! Since we cleared up the whole murder investigation thing and Sterben was definitely defeated once and for all, things have been better, especially for her. Sinon's been getting out, trying new things, eating new stuff, and she's been levelling up in ALO... and altogether, she seems a lot more cheerful and well-adjusted.

    So it may, indeed, be a bit worrying to see her on the porch, as she seems a lot more... delicate, perhaps. Timid, definitely. Worried, also definitely...

    And she steps inside and closes the door behind her, taking a moment to look if anyone else is around.

    And then before Asuna can say anything, Sinon does something which would /surely/ be rather worrying, towards Asuna...

    That is to say, she falls down onto the ground. Genuflect, dogeza, Orz ... whatever you wanna call it, she's doing it.

    "msorryasuna"

Asuna (9) has posed:
".... bwuh?"

Asuna says that in near perfect accidental copy of Kirito's voice, staring down at the Cait Sith in front of her. The fact that Asuna has known Sinon's been going Up in terms of things rather than down, the fact that she seems to be genuflecting on the floor to her, while also apologizing, throws the White Flash for a legitimete loop, Asuna staring at her for a few minutes, before she kneels down, pulling Sinon to her feet in shock.

"What-- why-- Sinon, you've got nothing to apologize for..."

Sinon (649) has posed:
    "But- but I-"

    Sinon comes right back up again! She's like a yo-yo. And... very clearly upset. Like as if hitting the ground didn't start it off, then Asuna fishing her up certainly did, and her face is turning red. "I just... I..."

    She hangs her head. "I g- I guess I need to explain, right? I... this is stupid, I'm being stupid, but..."

    "...I don't know what to do right now, after... after that thing, which happened a few days ago, I..."

Asuna (9) has posed:
Asuna is pretty sure she has a good idea of what Sinon is talking about, but isn't exactly sure.

She leads the other to the couch, and promptly forces her back down to sit on the couch, which is much more comfortable than genuflecting on the floor, before Asuna turns around to the stove and quickly makes a pot of warm tea, handing Sinon a cup. It's a soothing blend, perfect for when you need to apologize for trying to kiss someone elses boyfriend.

"Okay, start at the beginning."

Sinon (649) has posed:
    Well, narrator, you're partially right.

    Ssssip. "Well, I... I guess..."

    Sinon sits back a little. "Do I start at the start of this thing, or the start of the... or /right/ at the start, because then it would be the..."

    Sigh. Headshake. "This is about Kirito, you know it's about Kirito." She drums her fingers lightly against the side of the cup. "I mean... should I just... everything? /Really/ everything? Or just the important thing?"

Asuna (9) has posed:
"... start wherever, just make sure that everything that I need to know is explained so I'm not hopelessly confused or lost like I am right now."

Because Asuna sure is confused.

"So... go on." She makes her own cup of tea.

Sinon (649) has posed:
Sinon sighs.

    "I'm in love with Kirito."

    Well, that's as good a place as any. "...I feel like you maybe kinda knew that already. Since... the thing where I..."

    Is her mouth really dry for some reason? She takes another sip of tea. "OK, first I just... I want you to know, I knew Kirito for like... god, it's probably been a year now, hasn't it? Maybe ten months at the least? And I've known you for about five months. And I didn't know you two were...... ...until we were huddled up in that leaky boat."

    "But all that time he's just been... I don't know. Maybe he just acts this way to everyone. But the whole time I knew him, every time, it was like..."

    "You know, I told you, I've never had any friends or any... anyone. I didn't even... for Kyouji. But Kirito, he... he did everything right, you know?"

    Sinon's red and shame-faced. "Just... I don't know. Do you know what it's like to never have anyone care about you for nine years, heck to have everyone hate you, and then the first person you make friends with is... someone like him?"

Asuna (9) has posed:
"... I don't know about hating me, but I was ... sixteen when I entered the death game, Sinon." Asuna says, quietly. "For sixteen years before that, I was just my mothers child. Her perfect little girl. No one noticed me, no one really cared about me, except for where they could use me to get further along in life. When the death game was announced, I spent weeks in the starting city, considering suicide... because who would care about me if I was gone? ... no one. That's who."

"Kirito wasn't the first person I met in Aincrad. That honor really goes to Lisbeth - Rika, who was a blacksmith. It... was Kirito, however, that made the biggest impact on me. Until I met him... I didn't care if I died..."

"... I think I loved him from the start."

"... Sinon, how much of his story do you know?"

Sinon (649) has posed:
They really are two peas in a pod, aren't they?

    "...mostly... only what you were there for," she replies, and yeah wow her throat is REALLY dry, let's have some more tea. "He... told me about what happened to Laughing Coffin before, and I... at some time I guess I looked up the details of the... the whole thing. Part by news and research in our... this... world," oh god that feels like such a strange thing to say, "And then I looked at some things with the Union to find out about the Gatecrashers, but I didn't... couldn't read too much, you know? I don't know if I have the whole story, but..."

    She looks downcast. "That's kind of why, kind of why, kind of why, kind of-"

    She stops, and shakes her head. "Everyone was t-talking in the gatecrasher chat when we were doing that quest, about you and him... and I..."

Asuna (9) has posed:
"Oh Sinon..." Asuna sighs. "You're not the first to fall in love with him... he has a way with girls, but it's completely accidental. Just ask Silica and Lisbeth, or, if you're feeling daring, Leafa."

She sips her tea. "Sinon you don't have to feel bad. I... yes, he's mine. I don't want to lose him. But he's an important friend to you, and I can brgrudge you both that."

Sinon (649) has posed:
Sinon closes her eyes.

Wow. That many people, huh? That's got to make her feel pretty small, hasn't it...?
    (Answer: yes.)

    She mouths something like 'three people', to herself. "That guy... darnit..."

    "I guess... when I was sat there with you two during the BoB, I said that... that I couldn't give up on the way I felt about him. But it feels like... I mean, that's still the s- I can't- I-" She forces it out. "Won't... let my... feelings go, but. As far as everyone else is concerned, it's just you and... it makes me feel ashamed to, to be around everyone else..."

    "And he's never going to feel the same way about me."

    "I just don't know what to do with myself all of a sudden."

Asuna (9) has posed:
"... I'm sorry, Sinon."

Asuna says this again, and she does actually sound upset. She moves to sit next to Sinon, freely giving her a hug. "I really, really am." Asuna pulls back after a few minutes, peering into the others eyes, sighing deeply.

"Even if ... he can't love you like that, trust me when I tell you that you are his friend, and he cares deeply for you."

Sinon (649) has posed:
    "Mmf."

    Sinon just... nuzzles into Asuna. "You too, right?"

    And... well, there's no other way to really put it. She cries. She cries, because she knew this was going to happen, because she knew before she came here, because she fell in love with a married man, because he told her that a few seconds after she gave him her first kiss, when she was at her lowest... because there was no way she could win but there was still maybe one little part of her that thought that this would play out differently, that it might be better... because Shino Asada was maybe just born under an unlucky star...

    But of all things, not because she still has friends nonetheless.

    She mumbles something about having to tell the other Gatecrashers eventually. But not for a good long time.

Asuna (9) has posed:
"Me too, yes." Asuna says, absolutely sincerely.

She returns to hugging Sinon, for lack of other things to do.