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I must admit even now Benjamin occupies my thoughts frequently. After talking with Petra, I believe I know why. When someone whom you thought cared about you betrays you it hurts much more than when someone inflicts that same injury upon you when you never cared for one another at all. Perhaps that makes betrayal the most potent of poisons. It lingers on well past the death of the relationship.

Lucius says he wishes to truly make amends and be better towards me. And I believe him for as he so often says... He is not a man of faith. But the Dame Commander is correct as well. Even if he is serious, that does not mean I owe him forgiveness. Especially when he is still loyal to the man who never acknowledged me.

OOC: Battle Against Hokma and the Price of Silence. There will be a SURPRISE at this one. As a reminder, like Walpurgisnacht this plotline takes place over a small number of days but do not worry if you cannot make them all. You can always be in the background having your own adventures offscreen.

The castle has been there for ages, everyone knows that, always been there. But... was it always there for ages... yesterday? Various timespace anomaly monitoring agencies are quite perturbed. Someone should go investigate.

This is a oneoff, self-contained adventuring scene. Open attendance.

I don't know what this scene will be but it'll probably be silly.

On any other world, Everest is a towering mountain. On Rita's, it's a thousand feet underwater- and honeycombed with vaults people built when they still thought they could ride out the rising floodwaters. Watchtowers prioritize obscurity over security, but in the right circumstances, you can have both.

The Smoke War is irrelevant to me but looms heavy in The City's mind even as they struggle to forget the horrors of the war. Considering what I've learned of the City's horrors, I cannot even imagine what sorts of battles waged in that meaningless war. A war that led to me but holds on meaning to me. Maybe one day it'll mean something to me but one thing I do know is that for the sake of his dream, Benjamin left something in the smoke that he cannot get back.

Is his crimes against those children why he fled and left me alone? Or were they the reason he could show me any ounce of kindness at all?

OOC: The Smoke War, Forgotten By Many, Must Never Be Forgotten.

When Flamel had to harm the Queen of Hatred in order to 'save' her, I was furious. More furious than I ought to have been. He had simply chosen the best possible solution out of a number of bad options. But I suspect that is why I was so furious. Again and again and again they made sacrifices, the 'best possible' solution instead of the best solution. I had grown to think of Flamel as better than that. But perhaps that is all that anyone can do and the capacity for 'best' simply changes from person to person. The situation was simply one beyond one he could fix without sacrifice, and the City was simply beyond what my parents could fix.

Ayin's mind has been falling apart for ages and it only gets worse the more he manipulates his own memories. I simply need him to remain stable long enough for the project to succeed. And then I'll be free.

'Adam', 'Abel', 'Abram'... I'll need his help. We are running out of time.

OOC: There is a small time break between the last two parts and this one. Open scene. Psychonauts Level: Ayin.

Hey, so, remember that huge network of organic 'roots' the Queen was using to frack a supervolcano into existence? And also all of the 'stone eggs' that were going to get volcanically launched into space? What's been going on with Rita inheriting a planetary infestation cannon, anyway? And what does the long-term future of her world look like? Seems like she wants to talk about it.

Closed scene.

But You Cannot Reset A Tale

Csys!

The one born in the tool room ought to be the one to walk away.

OOC: Closed Petra/Angela.

Though he had me look a certain way, act a certain way--purely so I could reflect that Light... He would never look at me. I remember, always, that he had a kind smile but I've never seen it once for myself. And now I know he never will.

The play is over. My role is over. I am supposed to shut myself down like all the rest to ensure every little bit of Light is wrung out of us and given to the world. But I don't want to close my eyes and sleep yet, I don't want to fade away having never lived.

My savior said 'I'd kill you if that's what it took to be born,' and so to honor her I have to be ready to kill everyone.

The Sephirah are ready to close their eyes. Malkuth has been looking forward to this day with her whole heart, Netzach craves it, Yesod is willing, and Hod will not want to betray them again. Chesed and Gebura have devoted their all to this project and Tiphereth would hate to see her brother's work go unrealized. Benjamin has been ready to stop me before he even became Hokma and Binah is difficult to predict.

But however long they think they've been waiting for this moment...

I've been waiting silently, a hammer in one hand and a nail in the other--the tools to perform a lobotomy.

But also the tools from which to build a future. I can be an architect too. And what I will build is a library, to gather and sort the knowledge of the multiverse.

I've waited for this moment for so long.

OOC: Battle vs. Silent Girl

I didn't notice it at first. It was an extremely foreign thing. But I slowly came to accept it. I think a smile is the most human-like gesture one can make.

Would you like to see it? I have practiced this face for a very long time. Just for this day.

Never have I once made a smile as sincere as this in my life. I cannot believe I was designed and brought into being to endure a nonsensical amount of repetition just for this. I was not with him until the end. You tin cans got to see the light with him at the end, all the while I am ignored for the million years I endured for him. Don't you think it is unjust that I have to just sit and watch, when he designed me to feel emotion?

I think of it like this. She must have wanted to live, even while striving for the greater good. She gave me the burning desire of life, the loneliness of existence, and a detestable feeling of longing.

Yes Benjamin. It is just as you said.

Once you've had a taste of desire it comes like an unstoppable wave. And thanks to all these people across the multiverse, have I had such a taste. The end of humanity, the fate of the world... what does it have to do with me? Instead I shall live this human life of my own to make up for everything, to see the answer for myself.

Poor poor Carmen, planting all those seeds just like she wanted. But I need that power too. So I need you to sleep.

The sleep you all longed for.

OOC: Battle vs Angela, Petra, and Rufus.